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  1. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    Yeah…. Richard wasn’t a fan of the classic Victorian marriage, either, but that was mostly because he wasn’t a fan of anything classic, he didn’t love Victorian, and he hated marriage. It wasn’t really a feminist statement – leaving aside the discussion of whether or not men could make feminist statements at all. It was a shame, because truth be told, he could have done very well with such a cause. He had the researcher’s mindset to question everything, and the rebellious streak that would lead to him accepting nothing. And he did not love the way women were treated, truth be told, when he was prompted to think about it, he didn’t like it at all. Because all in all it was unfair, it was unnecessary, and it was boring, because if you treated fifty percent of the population that way, you disqualified them completely from bringing any true addition to your life. But with Victoria, (Ha, Victoria. Maybe that was where his aversion to all things Victorian was from?) things were a little different. Because she was an idiot. She wasn’t in control and shouldn’t be. And she had nothing to add whatsoever. At least not to him… Not at all… Because this wasn’t her, not just her it was actually mostly him and he was sorry. “What do you know about it,” he snapped at her, running a tired hand through his curls. “Have you ever regretted anything in your life? Or do you not have that depth of emotion within you? Too much formed by looking in the mirror?”
  2. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    Vicious... he had been vicious. He knew it as he said the words, almost felt them escape from his mouth and he did feel guilty. He did. He always did, always backtracked in his thoughts even though it was impossible in his actions. But even so, he regretted it but not by much. Cared but not too much. Sighed, and quickly put some money on the table, got up, got her coat, put it on her, wore his own. “Don’t be silly. You’ve had too much to drink to go home alone.” He had drunk as much as she had, but he was quite a lot larger than she was, she was rather petite. He was also more used to it and could deal with a lot more alcohol in his system. “Come on.” He refused to listen to her possible refusals, took her hand and Apparated them home. The children were already in bed. The house was dark and quiet. Normally, this was the point where someone would turn on the lights; normally, this was the point where Richard would get himself another drink, and perhaps another for Victoria as well, if he was feeling generous. Which he wasn’t. But now he didn’t. “Victoria… I’m sorry,” he admitted, with a sigh.
  3. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    Yes, he had decided Victoria was less than a genius pretty much upon meeting her. It was just in everything she did and said: it had been clear that not only the understanding was lacking, which could have been excused by a somewhat sheltered youth and no one ever asking much of her in the area of perception and pondering, but so had been any willingness to further such an understanding, any curiosity, any wonder at the world. Victoria seemed to move through life in a permanent state of befuddled and annoyed. Not noticing that she wasn’t bright would have made him seriously question his own intellect. And it bothered him: because Richard desperately needed someone to match him. That someone could straight up murder him for all he cared, he did not mind being bested, he wasn’t going for the beautiful wondrous love: but it had to excite, to fascinate, to entice him. To doom him. Victoria did none of those things. Sleeping with her was the best way in which they were compatible. She was beautiful, and less dull in those moments when they had both had too much to drink and she lost some of her reserve and he lost some of his mental capacity and high standards. Hence, they had kids. Which he supposed he had to admit she largely cared for. “Oh, but you are a charming delight,” he said with a wry smile. “Of course. One might compare you to a Turkish one. Sweet and fake and leaves you feeling just a tad queasy. But perhaps it’s a matter of taste.” He took another couple of bites and wondered if he was going too far and why he was going too far - why the thought that she cared for the little girls, which had actually been something he appreciated about her, had somehow made him more vicious. Oh yes. Because he was broken, indubitably. “And would you say so? That all females are by necessity on the same wavelength? Because then perhaps it’s worth a try, isn’t it?” He looked around, selected a good-looking girl on staff. “Why don’t you share dessert with her? I’ll clear out and give you two my Astoria card.” He winked. “They do a whisky fountain.”
  4. [1836/1837] All is fair in love and war

    Nee, Melody zocht hen over het algemeen niet op. In eerste instantie had ze nog een losse poging gedaan hun kinderen samen te laten spelen, alleen voor het idee dat dat goed zou zijn, maar dat was al snel op niets uitgedraaid omdat het eigenlijk nauwelijks de bedoeling bleek dat Richards kinderen naar het hare keken en dat maakte het bouwen van een blokkendozen zo verrekte lastig. Mel en Richard zelf hadden ook weinig tegen elkaar te zeggen gehad. Hij wist wel beter dan aanmerkingen hebben op haar gedrag - daarin zou het stuudje van de familie hem nu eenmaal niet serieus hoeven, nee mogen, nemen, want hoe Mel zich gedroeg was knetter maar hoe Richard zich gedroeg was gestoord en gevaarlijk en dus liet hij anderen liever aanmodderen. Bovendien trok hij zichzelf niets van terechtwijzingen aan en was anderen het geven dus wat hem betrof uit den boze. Melody’s boze toontje viel dus op dove oren. Maar Madeline die toegaf dat ze zich rot voelde? Beduusd keek hij haar aan. “Mea culpa,” sprak hij richting Melody, om verbouwereerd weer met Madeline verder te gaan. “Je vind het echt erg? Maar waarom? Die jongen kan alleen maar zo goed vliegen omdat zijn herseninhoud niet aan z’n gewicht bijdraagt.” Hij kende Dax niet echt goed, maar iemand die zijn zusje dumpte voor een moerasmeisje uit de hogere regionen kon niet veel soeps zijn. Nu ja, het was waarschijnlijk een verantwoordelijke, absoluut betere levenskeuze. Rich zou als ze geen familie waren z’n zusje ook niet daten. Oh ja, dat zou hij wel, maar dat was omdat hij geen verantwoordelijke goede levenskeuzes maakte. “En ja, ik heb een uitstekende vervanging gevonden. Het heet ‘een tweede huis.’” Hij grijnsde. “Willen jullie anders daarheen? We kunnen er zwemmen, drinken, en ook heus wel een poedelbadje maken voor het klein wonder.”
  5. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    Richard chuckled under his breath. A poet with a tortured soul and a sense of humour. Well, this only went to show that Victoria would not have done a much better job picking out a husband than her parents had on her behalf: because Victoria could not understand a sense of humour, and had no patience for tortured souls. They were not shoes, and as such, they were not worthy of her notice. “Ah well, but such people are one in a million, surely,” he said with a wan little smile. “Most of us just have our regular Monday morning souls to be getting on with. Torturing takes time.” He raised an eyebrow. “Unless, of course, you seek to further complete that picture for yourself? An admirable job so far but I fear that it does lack a certain depth. You should draw more extensively perhaps from the imagination, or consult a few books on the topic... I don’t know if any come with pretty pictures, though.” They finished their starter and the main course was fortunately brought immediately. Sitting and waiting was becoming less appealing by the second. “Perhaps you could dangle your admirable assets around the literary section of the Cambridge library every once in a while,” he went on to suggest. “To be sure, the books there have never experienced such a sight; nor I bet have most of the students. Become someone’s muse, heartily woe the day that you married me and severed yourself from him forever... or her, of course.” He sipped from his drink again and commenced on his meal. “After all, if it’s an illicit affair it might as well be a with a girl and perhaps you would find more common ground.” Once again, shoes.
  6. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    “Not quite, my beloved,” Richard said lightly, as he refilled his wine, because waiting for the waiter just was no longer going to work with the way their amazing romantic dinner was going. He sipped from it, did not gulp, never needed that, it was too desperate, too… odd. It wasn’t that he would be embarrassed about it: so far it should have become clear that Richard did not much care about how he appeared to others, members of the public, those amongst his acquaintance, and definitely not his family. As for his friends… well, those he had, knew him for who he was, knew that he was peculiar, appreciated him nevertheless or just not always (because he could actually be pretty clever, funny, smart). The rest, he did not care about either. “I said that it would be impossible to both understand and respect you. Because the more you understand, the less the magic makes the mystery.” Anyway. You’d say there had been no need to spell it out. But see, he understood Victoria, so he knew that there in fact was a need to spell it out. He smiled, somewhat sardonically. Unbeknownst to his wife, Richard could be said to have an ‘artistic sense’: he wrote poems, he painted. This was unbeknownst to her and he would certainly keep it that way, for he didn’t want her opinion on his works, on him, either. Not because he’d be embarrassed, just because he wouldn’t care… and because he didn’t even read his own poems or look at his own paintings, they were usually quite dark, a sudden disastrous streak of the imagination, or productivity, and he didn’t normally go back on them. “Oh, an artistic sense, hm? And what would you have in mind in that regard? A fashion line? A driven, injured soul?”
  7. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    A jerk. Really? That was all he got for his troubles? This basically made all the fun go out of even his tactic to cope with the lack of fun he was chronically having with Victoria, i.e. to find new, creative and eloquent ways to piss her off. If she wasn’t even going to respond, if she was going to just stare at him with that angry and admittedly beautiful glare, then what was the point of even trying this? Keeping himself amused within his own mind was, as so often, not working, his mind could not provide new information, could not surprise him, not at least until he’d sufficiently dulled his senses and his capacity for thought so that his own mind, his own imagination, could become strangers to him from one minute to the next. He needed a little input, a little inspiration, a little bit more... And that was something he was perfectly aware Victoria could not provide. Yet he continued to try. For they were married, and he was stuck with her as much as she was stuck with him. He was tired of it, frustrated with it, and at the same time on the good days he could almost not avoid to put energy into it for it was reality and reality was something even Richard must occasionally touch upon. Again, depending on his levels of intoxication only. He chuckled darkly. “Oh, but I do understand you, my beloved.” He gestured to the waiter to top up his glass as he too dug into his food, hoping that his body and mind would continue to allow him to convince them that they found this sustenance enticing. It was a good restaurant but he was not a good... human, and often enough he would find himself losing interest in all foodstuffs very rapidly, anything but the drink turning to ash in his mouth. Nowadays, though, it seemed to be okay. Today, it seemed okay. As the waiter left he continued. “And I might argue that with you, those criteria you mentioned are somewhat mutually exclusive. Wouldn’t you say?”
  8. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    See? See!? This was why he and Victoria didn’t get along! Well, it was one of many reasons he and Victoria didn’t get along, but for the purpose of the moment or the night, this was it. That even when he went along with her story, paid proper attention to what she’d said, and passed relevant and not completely interchangeable commentary on her bit of news, she found it well within her range to make out all his words as offensive. And he didn’t mind - not exactly, some part of him again had actually been going for this exact reaction, some part of him was already bored enough with her if she was rude and volatile and didn’t want to risk encountering her when she was friendly and on her best behaviour because that might make his brain drip out of his ears in fact - but he wasn’t well pleased either. Because yes, Victoria could not do it right. Not anymore and perhaps it had never been in her power. He wanted everything from her that he could not specify, he knew who she was, he knew that he had seen to the very depths of her character. She could no longer surprise him. And he hadn’t enjoyed it in the slightest. He grimaced, and gulped another helping of wine, wishing it was something much stronger, something that would make a dent in his straitjacket of sobriety. “Ah, yes. Such a pure understanding of the world, where naught can be valued without its comparison. The imagination, the surface, the impression, would never provide such unqualified understanding, would they, my frailly beating heart, my beloved cherry blossom?” He clicked his tongue. “Would you prefer the conversation of the devout ornithologist, speckled sparrow mine? Perhaps I might endeavour to encapsulate nature’s beauty’s in language’s most aesthetic form, too, and try my hand at some poetic escapades.” Dinner was served. “Who would you have married, had you had a choice?”
  9. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    To give Richard his due, he had not started out as cruel, clever and uncaring with regards to Victoria as he was now. He’d tried for a little while, ish, at least to be merely less than animated instead of downright cutting, but it hadn’t worked out. She’d loathed him from day one - he could not fault her though he occasionally wondered why - and he’d loathed her pretty much from day two of their engagement. They were simply not well suited. He was always bored, and she was always boring. All right, in fairness, she probably thought the exact same thing about him. And between the two of them and common supposition, presumably, his interests were more generally considered dull than hers. For some bizarre reason where those occupations you were supposed to enjoy were the same ones you made everyone else suffer through. He’d never comprehended it - he didn’t want to. It drove him to distraction. And there were things he liked to do, there were people whose company he liked to keep, every now and again when the mood took him and then he was actually fun to be around, even if the next day he was incapable of getting out of bed not because of the hangover but just because of the... depletion. Also, sure, Matthew was a part of not that circle but people he did somewhat like. Still, hearing about his impending wedding - or, hypothetical wedding at this point, of course, it was entirely possible that it was all going to come to nothing because he still had to ask - was about as interesting as the menu had been. Not, unless they could get into another fight about it. “Oh, really? Well... she seems nice. And she’s interested in everything he says and that’s impressive with Matthew. He loves birds.”
  10. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    Bewilderment looked pretty on Victoria. This was one of the few benefits of her character and looks combined, because the one virtually ensured that the second would frequently have to present itself in such a fashion. Richard could, of course, on good days and even days like these (which was an okay day, would have qualified as good because at least he’d had the energy to move), appreciate the fact that she was beautiful: the large, piercing, somewhat slanted eyes, the symmetry of her features, the delicate line of her shoulders to her neck. There was nothing about her he could love but these were things he could value, again, on those good days anyway. They were what eventually had led to their having daughters. Well, that, and plenty of booze. And possibly a slight desire to just make her shut up. He hated having kids, by the way. He hated having to hope that they would take after their mum, because he was even worse. It looked pretty on Victoria but it annoyed him nevertheless, it bored him, because he needed someone who would bounce back his spiteful commentary and give better than she got and Victoria was never going to be that person, was never going to understand half of the things he said, much less return comparable fire. She just whined. “They are doing well,” he informed her, enunciating the words clearly for his own amusement. “I did not know that Matthew had been looking for a ring?” Usually, when he spoke to Matthew it was about alchemy, although they had some personal conversations in between. Richard was not… exactly well liked, at his work, but he wasn’t loathed. People interacted with him as though he was an alien from another planet. It paid to be polite and to pay attention, but you were never exactly sure what he was going to do.
  11. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    “Oh, my precious wind through mountain grass, rest assured there was no side picking involved,” Richard said, as airily as the compliment which he had chosen to employ, in the full knowledge that Victoria found those all equally hopeful. “Unless you would suggest that to take someone’s order is an inexcusable sign of bias, an opinion with which, naturally, belonging to you, it would never behoove me to disagree... nonetheless, I would venture to hope that perhaps you might consider the practical implications of such a principled stance. You might put restaurateurs straight out of business.” Honestly, with Victoria being Victoria he had probably lost her halfway the second sentence already, which in fairness was not fully a critique of her intellect or lack thereof for he was also reducing her words to an absurdity never implied or considered. But it didn’t matter. He wasn’t saying this for her. He was saying this for himself. Like a chess game you played with yourself as an opponent, Richards inner monologue which he had always found abysmal company whether he was on a high or a low was these days at least his only chance of intelligent conversation. He wasn’t happy. But he kept himself amused. “Despite all that, perhaps, if you have a particular doubt as to the impartiality of our current waiter, I am sure that we can have him excused. Just don’t do that to the sommelier, please, honeybee delight, they are not so replaceable and foul injustice is somewhat preferable over pairing a white wine with lamb racks.” He smiled. “And what forethought! To buy a dress she can only grow out of when once she has grown into it! Perhaps for now we shall turn it into a little tent.” He Actually now and again did spend some time with Kestrel, doing things Victoria did not approve of. Only on good days. He wasn’t so much of a bastard that he’d inflict his bad days on an innocent child. Even if it was Victoria’s. “I worked, mainly, toiling away with chemical reactions. I don’t think it would interest you. We were not so fortunate to accidentally stumble on a perfect recipe for moisturizer.”
  12. [1836/1837][EN] Ugh, you.

    Victoria occasionally thought they should be a good couple. Richard occasionally thought he wanted a drink. It was remarkable how often those two thoughts coincided. All right, it was not so remarkable, perhaps – he wanted a drink quite often, also when Victoria was once again leaving well enough alone – but nevertheless, though there was no perfect correlation there absolutely was causation at the root of this matter. Naturally, with how much and how stubbornly he drank, it never really did have much effect nowadays, but… that didn’t matter, it was placebo as much as anything else at this point. “Oh, you do, do you? Perhaps I like conflict in my sustenance. I certainly seem to seek it in my other occupations.” He raised an eyebrow at her, sipped from his wine, and beckoned the waiter. “I shall order the steak and some salad, and may I be struck by lightning should it upset the general order of our wonderful world.” And he was perfectly aware that she would hate him doing that in public. And he was perfectly aware he didn’t care. “So, my delightful buttercup, how was your surely trying day? Shall I be able to add to it?”
  13. [1836/1837] All is fair in love and war

    Geen zorgen, zussie: Richard was ook niet bepaald te vinden voor een interventie. Sowieso had hij het niet zo op interventies, want ze werkten bij hem ook nooit, en hij vond ze maar wat vervelend, maar hij was zeker niet te spreken over eentje over liefdesverdriet. Kom op, dat was gewoon zeventien zijn – of achttien, was Maddie alweer achttien tegenwoordig, nee, zeventien nog vermoedde hij – iedereen had dan wel een beetje liefdesverdriet. Het was beter dan geen liefde hebben. En hij snapte niet dat Melody, die per slot van rekening net als hij getrouwd was met een hoofdpijndossier eerste klasse, dat niet gewoon wilde beamen en wilde drinken op Madeline’s passie en problemen. Het was leven, nietwaar. Het was meer dan bestaan. En het viel te ambiëren. Mads zag er gelukkig prima uit en helemaal niet ineengedoken op een bank met een bak ijs, wat maar weer alleszins netjes was, en hij ging met haar naar de bar, begroette daar zijn andere zus met een vlugge knuffel al bleef hij wijselijk uit de buurt van Valeria – Melody vond het maar niks als hij met het kind praatte en hij al evenmin. “Madeline, je ziet er stralend uit als altijd. Mel, zie je, er is niets aan ’t handje – je moet toch niet zo’n drama maken om een jongen, gewoon een nieuwe bestellen als ze niet langer functioneren.”
  14. [1836/1837] It's just another graceless night

    [OOC]15+ Richard is a mess. Always has been always will be.[/OOC] Richard was nog niet eerder in de gelegenheid geweest om de nieuwe nachtclub uit te proberen. Hij was de afgelopen maanden verdwenen in zijn onderzoek, zoals hij dat af en toe deed, bij vlagen – elke gedachte eraan, elke activiteit die hij verrichtte in het licht ervan, het ondersteunend – en in een nachtclub zitten was dan niet echt bevorderlijk in dat kader. Hij had zelfs nauwelijks gedronken de laatste tijd. Hij vergat het gewoon, zoals hij alles vergat, als hij een bui had als deze. Maar nu had dat geleid tot een gepubliceerd artikel, tot een aantal vragen voor verder onderzoek die aan student-assistenten waren uitbesteed, en tot een op zijn donder krijgen dat hij het niet wat rustiger aan had gedaan; en vandaar zat hij nu hier, want de energie was vervlogen al even snel als hij was gekomen en hij had niet langer iets wat hij kon of wilde doen. Hij miste alcohol nooit, tijdens zijn buien. En toch was het alsof zijn lichaam het miste maar zijn geest gewoon niet, want als hij eenmaal weer begon te drinken dan was het alsof hij zichzelf nooit meer kon stillen. Hij was hier geweest met wat vrienden van de uni en had zich behoorlijk goed gedragen – ja ja, daartoe was hij in staat, al was zijn niet energieke zelf momenteel zo uitgebrand dat het hem alleszins moeite had gekost – maar toen zij weer naar huis gingen was hij blijven zitten, omdat hij het niet op kon brengen om op te staan, omdat hij niet naar huis wilde, omdat hij nog steeds dorst had. En hij was niet direct blij toen een meisje nog twee drankjes voor hen beiden bestelde. Ook al was het whisky en was drie whisky... zegmaar... wel, zou interessant zijn hoe het bij de tengere jongedame viel. “Goedenavond,” groette hij haar kortaf. “Vermaak... Wat is dat meer dan een verder uitstel dan verveling. Als je het zoekt, weet je eigenlijk al dat je het niet hebt, en we hechten er meer waarde aan dan het verdient.”
  15. [1835/1836|EN] You were far too young, dear, to get so close to the clouds

    Adjusting to the transition between Violet and Christina always took a little bit of effort. Christina was both sharp as a razor and blunt as, well, a rock, and Violet, to be frank, was none of these things nor would she ever be. Though he loved her with all the emotion his eroded heart could bestow, Richard was acutely aware that by anyone else’s standards there were moments that Vi could be… just a little bit dim. He knew that it was mostly steadfast optimism, mostly due to a naiveté that wasn’t in fact exactly the same as stupidity though it would often translate into actions that could be considered as such, but even so, the things she did and said and her absolute lack of perception were sometimes quite astonishing. After all, he was a phenomenally bad actor, that was inherent to his particular flavour of mental illness, and yet she’d never noticed anything. The Bowmans were all barb and backstabbing, and she was clueless with regards to that, too. And whenever Christina made a feint, she happily went along without the slightest notion of what was going on. I mean, even the way Christina spoke to her. Soothing, but without room for discussion. And she went along with it. Yeah, Vi wasn’t the brightest. It didn’t matter to him. He loved her for her lack of perceptiveness, loved her for her incomplete understanding of the world, for her innocence and for her gullibility. He loved her for her generally bright view, which was definitely a case of opposites attracting, he loved her because she liked people, while he was only pleasant to the species when in a good mood and inebriated. Mostly, he loved her because she was so artlessly good. He could never manage. But he liked that she let him into the world that she saw. Not that he could ever stay. He followed Christina, too, because he didn’t want to say anything wrong in front of Violet, would rather explode than place her in danger for knowing too much, but as soon as the door was locked and they were secure he frowned at her, still too tired and beat down to get angry. “We’ve had this conversation, cousin dearest, have we not?” He gestured half-heartedly at the house. “What makes you think that the fact that I now have more children to be blackmailed over would have made me less likely to go along with it in any way?”